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Santa and Joshua

Santa and Joshua

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Todays Appointment

Well, the doctor's appointment was a complete waste of time. And it was the first time that I was absolutely pissed off by a doctor or even anyone in the healthcare field ever since finding out I have cancer. Since finding out the cancer had returned, my entire goal was removing the tumor from my body for good! Unfortunately surgery was said to be too risky in the beginning, so we went on to plan B which was chemo and then got the OK for radiation. The combination of chemo and radiation has been tough, but again, it was the best way to rid of the cancer.

Both my Oncologist and Radiologist were very positive and felt we would be able to shrink the tumor to the point that the surgeons would reconsider as the risk would be lessened. The original plan was to return to the University of Michigan for the surgery, where I had my original tumor removed.

My radiologist made a suggestion that I speak with a cardiac thoracic surgeon here in Traverse City, as he used to be one of the top surgeons at the U of M, and probably would have been the surgeon we would be talking to anyways if he still resided there. They are also good friends, and went to U of M together.All my scans, notes, biopsy, etc. was sent onto this doctor weeks ago, and an appointment set up for today. Everything sounded great. To be able to have this surgery close to home would have been amazing. I trust our hospital, know a lot of staff here, plus it would have just saved a lot of travel time, plus the extra expense of going back and forth for consults, pre-ops, surgery and post-surgery appointments.

We get to the appointment, fill out 4 pages of paperwork, and wait.We see the doctor and he begins a conversation with the secretary. Looking over my paperwork, we can over hear him say.."why the hell is he here to see me, he has already had surgery..." the secretary then closes the window between the office and the waiting room.

Now, I know people can have bad days, and I know that my case isn't what he normally deals with, as he mainly does heart surgeries, but obviously, this wasn't what I wanted to over hear him say. Plus, just the fact that he said that, to me meant, he had not looked over my case ahead of time. If he didn’t feel he wanted to, or didn't feel confident in performing my surgery, make that decision and let me know.
He came out into the waiting room, called my name and we went back to his office. We barely sat down, when he said..he had looked over my case, and he felt I should return to U of M for the surgery. I was able to say, that he was highly recommended by Dr._____, my radiologist. He said he felt it was best that I go back to U of M, so they could remove what had been left. (Nothing had been left, my original tumor was in my chest cavity, and it had now returned, metastasized in my neck.) Again, obviously he never really read over my case.

I very quickly got up, thanked him for his time and walked out. I think we were actually in his office for no more than 2 minutes.Can't believe I took today off of work -$$$- thinking we would have a great appointment and plan the next move, which I thought would have been, removing the tumor!

We do have an appointment with my oncologist this Friday, so, I will be giving her the details of today and see what we do from here. My thought is we will be making an appointment with the U of M, hopefully sooner than later. They will probably want new scans done, which I know won't be for at least 6 weeks. That is the minimum amount of time for the inflammation from the radiation and chemo to be settled back down.
Thanks again for everyone's thoughts and prayers. The fight continues!